Dream
You were there
In my dream last night
You were smiling,
Behaving nicely
Listening to others as they excitedly told their stories
You didn’t interrupt them
You even asked questions about those stories, you sounded interested
You looked calm, gentle, full of love,
Caring
It looked perfect, like a scene from a movie
But that wasn’t you
I know it wasn’t you
You can behave however you want
But I know you
Your hug still felt like thorns, just like it used to
Your eyes wanted to be sincere, but they weren’t
It was just an ideal image of you in my head
Someone I wanted you to be
But that wasn’t you
I wasn’t happy to see you, not even that version of you
I’m angry
Because even that ideal version didn’t seem real
It didn’t fool me or make me happy
Not even for a moment did it deceive me enough to enjoy your presence
You couldn’t even make an effort for just one dream
You couldn’t allow me to feel peace and love for just one moment
And you ruined that too
Like everything else so far
hi guys, I missed you!